Monday, April 25, 2011

my shark! my blue!

Before I go any further, I would just like to let you all know that the giant bowl of jelly beans on Easter Sunday was, in fact, as amazing as we all thought it would be. He had to work for it, though. I hid plastic eggs in plain sight all over the apartment and he was forced to trouble himself with opening each of them to discover the candy inside. It was twice as sweet because we RAN OUT of jelly beans for a WHOLE DAY before Easter and he really thought the world might end because of it.

Anyway, on to the real point of this post. Remember that time I embarrassed myself posting this picture? Well, Punkin has a thing for tearing paper and plastic bags. And he has a thing for long, skinny objects. So after nearly a month of dragging two bathrobe ties around as pets, forcing me to kiss them before bed, wash them when they got dirty, and pick them up from the tiny space between his bed and the wall 15,000 times, he discovered that his could be shredded.

To him it's the same old "shark," even when it sheds and scares the crap out of me when I think there's giant bugs on the floor.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Thursday, April 21, 2011


For the past few months, Punkin has been increasingly interested in spinning. He's always been preoccupied with spinning objects such as balls and wheels, but this involves his entire body. Now, I know as parents of autistic or special needs kiddos, we would normally discourage this behavior, but it seems to calm him when he's assisted by an adult (ie: not holding a strip of a plastic bag).

I was picking him up, spinning him around, crashing him onto the bed, and repeating until my back broke in anger. And while this is still our preferred method because it's the most fun, the spin board we're borrowing from the occupational therapy center is pretty sweet. I wish it were a little bigger, actually, but it works for now. It's accomplishing some of the same things a swing would do without any property damage.

If you're interested in one, email me (theotherlion(at) They can be very expensive, but there's a local company that makes them cheaper (swings, too).

Monday, April 18, 2011

wishful thinking

Punkin's going to be so excited on Easter when he actually DOES receive an entire bowl of jelly beans first thing in the morning. As for today, it didn't fly. Nice try, buddy.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

view from the love seat

The other day my friend said my apartment was cozy, and I was so happy because that's exactly what I'm going for over here. This picture doesn't quite convey the green in the curtains, which makes me worry about the color scheme being to "Christmas is Coming," but I just go through phases where I can't stand messing with slipcovers for one more second. Not one more! Eventually I'd like an area rug to tie it all together and help it make sense, and also to protect the carpet from my walking stain bomb. For now, though, my carpet cleaner is serving me well.

Saturday, April 9, 2011


These guys are Phineas and Ferb. They build rollercoasters, beaches, airplanes, and time machines in their backyard. It really bothers their sister Candace, who is unfortunately not pictured here.

This is Dr. Doofenschmirtz. He is EVIL. He likes to build inators, and this is one. Smellinators, shrinkinators, etc. He wants to take over the tri-state area.

This is Dr. Doofenschmirtz fighting Perry the Platypus, aka Agent P, who is also the pet of Phineas and Ferb. They have no idea that he is a secret agent.


Toys are a tricky thing in our house. Punkin befriends objects, usually pairs of them, for days at a time and then either destroys them during a non-medicated time or loses interest suddenly. Action figures are the one type of toy he consistently plays with in an appropriate way, besides cars. I think it's because he can reenact scenes from the shows, down to specific lines such as this one, "Oh, hello Perry the Platypus, would you like a sandwich?"


My cousin sent me these questions for a project at school and I found them very interesting. I thought I'd post my answers here.

What has been the greatest challenge/ hardship with raising Punkin?

I honestly don’t know if I’ve met that challenge yet. I think the future scares me much more than the present. That said, other people have been our biggest challenge thus far. We don’t fit into their world and they often don’t fit easily into ours. We are the recipients of a lot of unsolicited advice, mean looks, and snarky comments. And I am constantly trying to balance meeting Punkin’s needs and allowing him the freedom to be a child with the responsibility to respect the people in our community. For example, going out to eat, living in an apartment building, grocery shopping, flying on an airplane, and attending a play have been some memorable challenges. Some of them we have only attempted once. All of those things are stressors on Punkin's sensory system and beyond his ability to handle socially; but they are also things Punkin loves to do and needs to learn how to participate in appropriately.

What do you do to relieve stress?

Sometimes I do silly things like play Facebook games. It’s nice to be able to sit and do nothing at the end of the day – to not be required to think very hard or to be able to do a simple task involving organizing or cleaning, even if it’s in a virtual world. I also really enjoy talking to other parents through blogs. We laugh, cry, yell at insurance companies together, and brainstorm methods of calming our children’s wily sensory systems.

Has your faith played a role in raising Punkin? If so, how?

I am a Christian. I would fall apart without my faith. I honestly don’t know how parents manage without it. style=""> I trust that God will provide for us and take care of us, and it is a tremendous relief.

What are your fears for Punkin in the future?

I worry that I haven’t prepared well enough for him and that he won’t be cared for well enough. I worry that people will be mean to him or that he will be neglected.

What is Punkin’s favorite food?

His favorite food used to be hot dogs. Then for a time it was chips and salsa con queso. Lately it’s been watermelon, which is rather pricey considering the time of year. He generally loves fruit, though, and salad with ranch dressing. And he’s always game for pizza.

Describe Punkin’s condition and how he is affected.

Punkin has Fragile X Syndrome. It is a genetic condition that is passed down on the x chromosome. It can be passed down from either parent. There is a gene on Punkin’s x chromosome that has mutated to the point that it has shut off completely. That means that it doesn’t produce the protein it is supposed to for Punkin’s overall development. In his case it has caused moderate mental retardation, autistic behaviors (but not autism), ADHD, sensory integration disorder, and speech delay. He also has a sleep disorder that has not been specified more than “sleep disorder” and acid reflux. Fragile X is a spectrum disorder, which means that people are affected in all kinds of ways, from mild to severe. Punkin is fairly typical of a boy with Fragile X.

How do you calm Punkin down?

How I calm Punkin depends on where we are and why he is upset. If he is fixated on something and unable to move past it, then a lot of times I will tickle him and talk to him in a funny voice. If he is aggressive or self-abusive, I may put him on his bed and let him throw his stuffed animals until he calms down. Many times he wants to lay upside down on my lap and watch a movie. He calls it jumping.

Do you ever get tired of being constantly surrounded by special needs kids? (I work with special needs preschoolers.)

I get tired. I don’t get tired of special needs kids. I forget that not all kids are like them, though. When I run into a typically developing child, they blow me away with their language and self-help skills.

Does Punkin have a favorite book and movie?

His favorite book right now is The Very Hungry Caterpillar. He can recite much of it. His favorite movie right now (it changes every few weeks) is Despicable Me. He has an amazing sense of humor. He belly laughs every time Vector shrinks the toilet.

Why did you start writing your blog?

I started writing my blog because I needed an outlet for my creative thoughts and because I admired other parents who wrote blogs and wanted to be a part of their community. It’s become more than I thought it would be – I’ve met people from all over the world and we’ve helped each other through this struggle.

Is it easy to maintain friendships when you have Punkin?

It’s harder than it was before Punkin because I can’t be spontaneous. I can’t just call someone up and go out for dinner or meet someone for ice cream at the last minute. I think any parent would feel that way, but being a single parent makes it extra difficult. I don’t think his disability makes it more difficult because I have good friends who don’t shy away from challenges or differences. Many of them work with special needs children themselves. Many parents are not in the same situation I am in and their friends don’t know how to react to their children and it puts a strain on their relationships. Some parents have children with weakened immune systems and are isolated because of that. In my case, I think that if I don’t maintain friendships, it’s because I am not making myself a priority. I tend to always make David the priority.

Will you consider dating anyone?

Yes, but he needs to be a Christian and he needs to understand that if we have children, they will either be adopted or we will run a 50% chance of having more children with Fragile X. That’s a lot for someone to accept.

How important is family?

Our family helps support us in our daily life. It is extremely important.

Do you feel that Punkin is judged by his peers?

Yes, definitely. Many of them are very kind. They still know he’s different and they still giggle at him when he does inappropriate things, but they are generally kind from what I can gather. Most children want to be helpful.

What were some of Punkin’s struggles as an infant.

Punkin struggled first with nursing, then some with bottle-feeding as well. He just had trouble because of his weak facial muscles. Once we got those things sorted out, he had trouble sitting up and crawling. He crawled at age 13 months and walked at 16 months. He gagged a lot and was eventually diagnosed with acid reflux.

How did you find out you were going to have a special needs child?

I was tested in high school to see if I was a carrier of Fragile X and the test said I was not a carrier. However, the paperwork we received was a little “off,” so when I became pregnant I pushed for a retest. It took a while, but I finally was tested at 6 months and found out that had a full mutation of fragile x syndrome and a 50% chance of having a child with the same condition. I think God was preparing me for the news, because I wasn’t really surprised when a month after Punkin was born his doctor called to say his test was positive. Having that time to know what might happen was helpful for me. And knowing from the first month is very rare. I’ve had a lot of time to adapt my expectations, mourn the loss of the “typical” child, and learn how to be the best mom I need to be to Punkin.

Does Punkin have any friends?

Punkin had one very good friend in preschool. They would chase each other around at recess. It was pretty funny. He has one friend his age now. She has Downs Syndrome and they fight like siblings. He had some other friends in preschool who were typically developing, one in particular who was a good helper. He would hold his hand and convince him to do scary things or ask him to please share when he was kind of impatient with all of the other children.

He has other friends, though, who are adults --the janitor at school, for one, and some of my friends who he considers his friends.

What hopes do you have for Punkin in the future?

I hope that he is happy and well protected. I also hope that he can ask for help and other things he needs when necessary and that he has fun. I hope he’s happy.

How do you and Punkin have fun?

We spin around the room really fast and then I throw him on the bed and tickle him and kiss his face.

We also like to go to the children’s museum or out to Culvers. He really likes cheese balls. We’ve also been known to watch SpongeBob all day on Saturday.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

it hit 60 degrees!

works in progress

Normally I would never place a rug around my toilet (eww), but given someone's boy-ness I felt it was necessary. At least I can put it in the wash.

Friday, April 1, 2011

just for fun

Because I can't rationalize spending the money on an area rug right now, I'll just post pictures of pretties I found online: